I was in front of my friend’s laptop wishing I could find my soulmate or at least my love as soon as possible. I was rather envy or jealous since one of my best friend get out of a date with her “brother”. It’s hard for me to admit I was all alone, left out in the cold by love. I was lonely, helpless girl trying to find what love means for.
It’s rather dark deep inside my heart and it has been very long time since I fell in love. I don’t care what people might think of me. There was nothing offered by love to me. I always love him, my friend since the elementary school and has exactly the same feeling for him. Unfortunately, he couldn’t love me due to his love to other. Seems like TV dramas, isn’t it? How come I become so uneasy with this situation. I can’t dealt with, I can’t even handle it. For the love I felt was nothing to him and almost all my friends have found their love..
I couldn’t enter to someone’s thought or feeling. I couldn’t even understand my feeling now. It’s a mix up between lost and found, failure and hope, balance and imbalance, patience and anxious and sooo many other weird feelings. I could never explain that. At the end, I do always hope that someone will sent to me. To release all my pain, loneliness, and emptiness. I do hope that the person is YOU, someone whom I love eternally and it would never change at the end of the day.
